Deciding on My Next Steps (and SCUBA)
As I start my day today among the hugs and happiness of a stirring, Blackburn family, I notice how the sun is hesitant to shine.
Today, I really need it to shine because my father and I are taking a daddy/daughter trip to SCUBA dive the infamous Table Rock Lake, a lake in which I have swum since I was tinier than the majority of fish that dominated her waters.
Today, I really need it to shine in order to stay warm as I slip beneath the gentle waves caused by the renegade boater who is slightly less daring than I as he grazes the top of the lake. Today, I really need it to shine because I am trying so hard to keep my wits and smile about me and ignore the pressing blur of uncertainty of where I am going in my life next that keeps setting in as of late.
Today, I really need it to shine because I want a reminder from God that everything really will work out, though I may be missing the other reminders that he is providing me at the moment. But today, I am with my family, so I choose to seek out the little pieces of sunshine inside the house so that I can squish them together and see the love that everyone brings to the Thanksgiving table year after year.